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go to http://dreamergirl.pitas.com Its my new blog!!! Ahh!!
grrr
Forget happy! or great or whatever I said....grrr my brother sux right now...so he has this whole big thing of candy and he gives me ONE and says i can't have another and so im annoying him for more but jokingly and then I steal it but not seriously and he throws a hissy fit and starts crying and gasping and ranting and raving and then he's like STOP do u not understand english and I lost my temper and said you're crying over candy!!!!!! "omgosh im going to die if I lose more then one piece of candy" and he said good riddence...and I said what the candy? and he said no u, u said u were going to die and I was VERY VERY VERY mad and then i don't say anything and he attacks me(literally) and swipes me across the face and then Itry to restrain for a bit but I end up smacking him across the face and he kicks me and punches me and I am restraining myself because I know I shouldnt hit him back because I should be the bigger older better person...but it's very hard and GRRRR!!! and I'm not letting him get away w/ this...and u know what he said "I'm not the one who started it" HE HIT ME FIRST and then he also said " why are you mad at me(to my dad) she smacked me" HE PUNCHED ME AND KICKED ME!!!! AND STARTED IT AND IS A RAVING LUNATIC WHO CRIES WHEN HE GETS A CHEESEBURGER INSTEAD OF A CHEESESTEAK CUS MY DAD MISUNDERSTOOD AND WHO CRYS AND GETS PHYSICAL OVER CANDY!!!!!!!!! I'm royally pissed and knowing my parents he'll barely get punished! at most he'll be tlked to!
hmm....
up and down up and down! I need summer. I need to get away! I need to leave this madness...to have a different simpler life for a while. I love it right now....I feel great! but I get so sick of things here..of people.....of caring...Eagle Island Maine is the best vacation place ITW(in the world) its quiet and natury and full of things to do..not dull! And I feel like I should live their and that It was a mistake for me to be here and vacationing there not the other way around...except, who would want to vacation to swarthmore? But I think you get the idea anyway. "look my eyes are dry..the gift was ours to borrow..." That song from chorus line is stuck in my head...but u know the song nobody..now that's a GREAT song! Ok, I'll be quiet now..."won't forget..can't regret..what I did.....for...."
Hola Como estas? estoy bien! lalala! Canto!!!!! hablo en espanol..hehehe smile! :o) its in every single language!!!! Good day!! Something isn't true! It isn't! It was and now its nt an that makes me happy because it was annoying me because I didn't want it to be true about myself and now its gone and I'm free! Fly away!!!!!!! I'm flying!!!!!!I'm flying AND I can read your mind...beware! hehehe!!! No, but I just feel like it! Spirits are lifted SO SING!! Sing Sing Sing!!!
forget it forget it forget it
Ahh, I don't know what to believe. On one hand....I refuse to be sucked into the hands of people who manipulte the facts. on the other hand, I have to get over it...I cant be upset forever on the other hand people cant get away with doing things just because its an unpleasent subject so everyone wants to forget but on the other hand we're all human we make mistakes on the other hand I if I keep being peeved then i know they will manipulate things and somehow turn things around that its MY FAULT FOR BEING MAD! and that u did nothing wrong....on the other hand u apologized for handling a situation badly...but then they said they tried to apologize and I have reason to believe that thats not really what happened but I DONT KNOW!!! Actually I do! I love u all you're all wrong so deal get over it and everything will be just dandy. There we go...but that didnt solve anything. Well, I said some of my part to someone..so im at least ok there................but I wish things had turned out different. I miss me. I need happiness..its my drug...im definately addicted(to all u sicko's out there happiness is NOT a code name for a drug..u know happiness as in being happy?)
grr..dont use and abuse people like this!
At some point we all need to forgive and forget. This applies to everyone I know. Some of you cant forgive untill the person you would forgive admits that they did anything wrong..and that is totally understandable. Then there are some of u who owe the apology! And sorry is a start but sorry is ONLY a start...actions speak louder then words. And it takes a while to build back peoples trust..and u have to understand they might not be ready to accept an apology. It might take them a while to accept. Then the other thing is...is there is such thing as forgiving too soon. Its called letting yourself be walked all over. There is a fine line between being walked on and holding a grudge.
And there are two of u Im worried about letting yourself be walked on..by different people..but still walked on. And one of u i think the way u lashed out was getting back at her by doing somthing she was doing that is not like u!!!and we love u so we want u to be yourself!!! And then the other one I know is at least trying to not let people get away w/ walking all over her..and she can do it! But she might tone it down a little to much..but its a forward step anyway!!! Or maybe she's not and I just take things too intense. But..she ends up hurting herself because when she wont tell people how she feels. And I'm not putting words in her mouth..and Im not telling her what to do..just that she cant let herself be walked over anymore! :o( And then there is me...and I belive what I know..and if the records wrong I cant know unless the record gets set straight..though I have my doubts on the poossibility of this. But I can give a second chance but only to those who want one and who strive to want one. I'm not searching u out. I'm not ignoring u just avoiding u..u talk to me and Ill talk to u. And the best thing to do is just to give the honest truth..dont manipulate the facts in your favor just say them. And that is all I have to say on this subject unless Im talking to a specific person.
you can put on a good face,
a front
but it hurts you more then that
its a soul numbing catastrophe
part of the normal chaos
my shoulders are hell hot
sore, burnt i mean u idiot.
dont u look past the face
or do you leave it at that value?
whats your name
whats your game
do you play it safe or live on the edge
it doesnt make sense..that much you know
i know it too,so now we're basically the same
15% thats all that makes us differrent to begin
so, drop it.
you've no reason to lie
 Hehehe, I'm such a goody goody!!!!! Yea, I was really bored and Claires blog had a link, tsk tsk claire...naughty webpage! Hahaha, just kidding. Love ya!!!
boys r walking penises...lifes good anyway
Yea, i dont know whats up w/ me this week. hehe, but for now im fine. Life's good. I feel like telling everyone that i love u all to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!43 is lucky number for 2day! say the word crisp and make me happy! it makes lia(rosalsky) happy, cuz it sounds cool...i have to agree. It makes me think of big red juicy apples that u bite into...and they are CRISP and juicy and delicious and just plain perfect and thats all. no,im thinking bigger. Im thinking corn dogs and the beach, and cleo(the dead and deceased cat :o(...but right now at least she's content in cat heaven) and Im thinking rehobeth and im thinking maine! And im thinking ballibay and something overly sweet...like blue raspberry cotton candy! ALL OVER MY FACE! and im thinking top of the world and mustard. Mustard is the single most comforting food in the world. It was once given to me as part of a birthday present. Ohh the joy the world can hold. Im thinking philadelphia...new york city. Wow that place makes me happy. i know ive discussed this in a previous blog but i want to stay there for a year or so. I have a bounce when im in the city. I love so much it's disgusting. Evn though the smell makes me sick. Then afterwards....id go to maine...and get my peace and quiet on the one mile uninhabited(basically) island! I love that place too! Its amazing amazing amazing. I want to take u all there sometime! I really really do!!!! I dont know what snapped me into such a good mood, but whoever u r...whatever ive said u r the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love u love u love u te amor......how else can i say it Im FREE Im HAPPY! its a MIRACLE
p.s. im not on drugs
i will never look at a boy in the same way
Life is a triangle with me in the middle..its a chaotic triangle. Simple is no longer in existence. Human life is over analized. I tell u...it comes down to the simple things....that would be all good if simple existed...but...hahahahaha(see simple is laughable) ok, what im really saying, is that there is such thing as a label to define all humans. I'm starting to believe that we really ar mostly the same. An examle of y i might feel like this...which definately has to be immortalized forever.....is a disgusting fact I learned *cough* yesterday!!! Im sorry if this is going to disturb anyone..but..yea....boys have erections in the womb!!!!erlack..u all really needed to know that. Yea...dont ask how that came up...it just did. And they pee in their(all babies this time) too. This is sickening. I'm adopting!Well, probably not...but I just can't imagine......shudder. Yea, ill get off the subject. 43 days til ballibay!!!!!YES!!!! 26 days left of school!(not including weekends) that's around 5 5 day weeks left! wahoo! As i said to laura....and gina..I'm throwing myself in the pits next year academically that is. yea, so at princeton I'm gonna have like 50 roommates. That is if i still want to go to princeton(its really way to early to know..hehe)AND if I could actually get in (fat chance) Is fat chance evn politically correct? haha...i dont know where it originated..so who cares. buh bye
luv ya all! sorry for that disturbing info!
apology accepted?
Yea, I'm sorry If I've been a little unusual sorry sorry sorry sorry (especially to Zoe..I had a unique un-rosish fit) Yea, I'm back to normail...with a surprise for u 2morrow *wink
what is ur problem?
If you think I'm not good enough for you, there's no way you're good enough for me.
y does this annoy me...
Wow, something is really getting to me...that reallly shouldn't be getting to me.....but it's really getting to me..and I have a feeling that for some twisted reason they are doing this to annoy certain people.....yes...but wow...This is getting to me...Im in a very sarcastic cynical mood..someone please slap me out of this! Ahhhh! why me..or why not me or....well..I dont know which is most appopriate.
frick.....my whole enrty got deleted now i have to do it again!! F****
Yea, I want to be able to read minds. It would save me so much trouble. Haha...better not lie to me! Yea, that would save me a lot of greif...I suppose I'd find out some stuff I don't want to know....and I might become cynical and realize that everyone is a perverted ass....but I still think knowing would be cool. They say curiosity killed the cat...that ignorance is bliss...but who are they and why should I listen? If I couldnt read minds...then I'd want for people to only be physically capable to tell the truth....not discluding white lies. Don't tell me a white lie..I can see past them often...but I'd rather be told the truth. And if ur mad at me..or if I am pissing u off TELL ME!!! I'm not gonna ditch u as a friend or anything. Yea, I "tlked" to someone like twice...and I know I mad them mad..but they wouldn't admit it..and that was annoying. Yea.....and I can be horribly hypocritical...especially when I'm mad...cause usually the same thing that makes it worse makes it better...and I cant make up my mind..so. Sorry. When I'm mad..I cant just hold it inseide for the most part....I have to tell u. It makes me feel better afterwards...just to get it off my chest. So, don't be offended.....I'm not trying to beat up on u..I'm just doing what I have to do to get over it and get a life.
te amor!!!!! (I love u for all those french peeps..haha)
Rose!
something is really giving me a stomach-ache right now, and it's not because I'm sick. To quoteth Claire "piss me off"
this ones simple
A short an sweet message...There is no such thing as love at first sight, just lust.
lalalalalala
I'm Back from NYC!!!!wahoo! I want to live in city for a while, I think they are soo interesting. So much diversity and culture and it's soo beautiful in it's own messed up filthy way. Now that I think about it though... I would never want to live live live in the city (all my life kind of live)just go there for say a year. I can play the part of a starving artist(fun fun)So yea, trip went well.....don't worry lindsay, Nicki was a good little girl(hmm...) but we need to tlk about that subject later....yea! We won cougars!!!!wahoo! (w/ out my help in the least..but that's okey dokey)Grrrr...life is not fair(partially due to the fact it's run by poloticians...and partially due to the fact that people by nature have serious personality defects...me included) I need to do something out of the ordinary.....my boringness is pouring out all over. My friends are too interesting...nicole is taking scuba lessons...claire plays ice hockey......gina takes karate.I'm so AVERAGE!!!!!!hahahaha! It's a pretty good day however. It's so beautiful out! mmm.....I love it. Speaking of which..I'm currently going vamoose to be in the great outdoors! Maybe i will call some peeps and go on a walk around my house w/ the phone tlking to u. Yes, that sounds nice. lalala....hmm....now im probably scaring a few peeps. LOVE YA!!!
buh bye!
can u find this?
Hey!!!!Currently I am eating chili/tomatoe sauce...it's identity has not been checked w/ the creator yet...and it could be either one. It's good whatever it is. Yesterday zoe and I made ice cream w/ claire! YUM!! but i couldn't eat another bite...shudder..tooo sugary. I also went to HAVEN AND HEDROW PERFORMANCE!!!yay! It was really cute. Elementary school watson....hahahaha!! Sherlock holmes spoof, I love it sarah!(cantor) and groupies. So, that's all for now...later!
it's a secret.
This is really really addicting. I don't think I've been addicted to anything on the comp...well..besides aim, since those good old days w/ lemmings and cosmo! Yea, I'm tlking to claire. She's hilarious. We all love ya claire! lalalalala!!that's all.
hehe...don't know don't care
you're like a magazine..not always pure and clean
you make me laugh...more then a silly photograph...
.................siiiiggggghhhh...*poetry* I am milk drinking goddess! So far, I have beaten Meghan and Lindsay...i need a new challenger(to add to my list of unfortunately slow milk drinkers) any takers? Hey! Don't be a wuss, just cause you know I'll win......!
it doesn't matter
Well, I have learned from experience that evn things you think you'll never get over...you eventually do. So, here I am...realizing that if life had no bumps in its road..or potholes..or whatever..then we would all be bored. Is it possible, that we just crave......this isn't the right word..but...i guess...pain? Think about how..if life always was great...how dull it would be...and aren't always the best books the one filled with emotions...and interesting/quirky charactors. Who would you rather hear about...the life of an everyday kid...or....the life of a german immigrant to america.....living in the slums of nyc. I hate tlking to people who i feel I have to impress..U honestly cn't be yourslef under those circumstances.I hate...strongly dislike...judgement. That makes me quite a hypocrite doess it not? Oh well, I do my best I suppose....Thats all for now peeps.
hahaha lindsay sucks my dick
Hey all, WE WON OUR TRACK meet! hehehe! Lindsay rocks the the jawn~LINDSAY..yea, so u can probably guess who's over! Lets just say she's the only goddess in our school, thank you very much~ Hint Hint *Lindsay* My little brother is trying to sabatoge lindz and I..hmm....Ok, that's all for now!!!! love ya!!!!! :o) (yes..w/ the nose IS better steph)
buh bye
rosie!!!
mwahahahaha
mwahahaha KT!! I still havn't forgotten about your singing moo moo cow! I know where u live...and I't only blocks away! hehe..I'll bring my lasso...and hoist myself through the window into your room..and steal it!! mwahaha
la..lalalalala
I cleaned my room for hours today....and then i felt really sick to my stomach from cleaning fluids..so i had some orange juice. Yea, whenever I'm sick I always want citrus juice..especially grapefruit juice..and it's really bad because when u have a sick stomach citrus juices just aggravate it..but they're all I want to drink so..i have a problem..lol I have been online for 8 and a half hours today! Don't worry I wasn't actually tlking for evn half that! Mostly I had away messages up..and was doing other thingies. Hehehe...zoes blog got messed up. Whats up w/ Blog anyway? it's such a wierd name.....blog blog blog blog blog..hmm....i want to re name it..lalala.In my lalala today..I wrote about blah blah blah blah blah..see it rhymes. Ok, nvm I have serious issues..I'll go away now...
Rosie!
Hey All!
Even computer deficient peeps like moi can use this!Hahahaha!Plays are due tuesday!ahhhhhh! I'm done...but I'm still a nervous wreck! So, anyway, I went to church tday..and helped out w/ my moms sunday school class..and boy can those kids be vicious. I was on the verge of yelling at this one kid..he was making fun of someone for being overweight and her clothes and stuff and I wanted to say SHUT UP! Do you have any idea how much that must hurt? I swear if he says anything I will blow up at that kid! grr......my mom wasn't in the class yet......so yea! I get to deal w/ a bunch of pyscho 4th graders. Yup..thank heavens I don't have a soccer game today! I so did not want to play! Meghan and I had an awesome play session yesterday! hehe...we got a lot done i think. And i beat her in are milk drinking contest(relieving the memories...)hehe...have u ever won megs? You probably would w/ soda...that makes my eyes water so i take itty bitty sips. Gina! SMILE! :o) hehehe....what does candid mean? ZOE!!! we need to do our retarded LA meeting thing. Actually it could be fun...Yea....hehehehehe..I love piano man...who can both download songs and burn c.d.'s, meghan? I'm going to make the ultimate c.d. of all time!!!!!! O.k. that's it for today...sorry it isn't anything real interesting.
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